I know how but I can’t do it

I know how but I can’t do it By Tt 06/22/21 At Virginia home (1) Nothing goes before Nothing comes after High in the middle of deep space Entertained by the empty cloud The bright full moon seems to have no idea where she is heading ... (2) Led by ignorance Chased by myriad afflictions Low, down, and under the heavy Shadows cast by the karmas My precious “I” is in pain (3) Seen by no one Heard by no one Approached by no one Who knows the language of gnosis and love to carry on A deep, unceasing conversation That takes me directly To the home of my own Anatman. (4) Yes, my dear friend, You did hear me correctly I am alone No one sees me... (5) Lashed by the craving in the relentless silence I see myself as so feeble and thus somewhat scared Come on! Find a way and be free! In silence, I heard these words more forcefully and precise than ever before (6) Looking up the moon I think of nothing But deeply wish I could wrap myself in that gentle light See myself illuminating and disentangled... (7) Yes, I can assure you With my heart fragmented I know exactly the path that I need to take, to change the course of my bleak destiny But, I can’t do it! (8) Alas! my gorgeous noble lady moon, Please lend me the sky, the bed Upon which you rest with bliss Alas, my dearest noble lady moon Please teach me how to see And sleep in my own sacred bed of Anatman! Oh, my most beautiful noble lady moon Please train me how to deal with my earthly existence Like the way you make the empty clouds entertain you with their laughter of compassion!