A lonely man is pondering

A lonely man is pondering 

At the Ravens Roost Overlook on Skyline Drive

July 4th 2019

By Tt

Virginia 

I am looking far, faraway...

but I don’t know what I need and why...

I am waiting for my lady because
She demolishes all the limitations created by my ignorance.

I sit still 
but my mind is dancing violently with the clouds that seems solid and on its own.

I want to, 
but I can’t bend my head down because my ego gets terrified.

I know ultimately I am the space, 
Hence, at least can develop a vision 
that matches the space and accommodating the life.

I know by the nature,
I am the cloud flies in the sky, 
Therefore, at least can achieve the wisdom
that sees the universe as a heap of cloud, 
come from nowhere and disappears nowhere...

Although, I am not,
But, I can be as hard and heartless as the rock I am sitting on.

My ego and self-cherishment is not only the cause of my own miseries, 
Horrifically it is also the source of the pain of millions I might meet with.

Oh, my merciless and brainless ego, 
You go die! Die! 
And die now! 

Alas! Come please, 
You, my lady, 
My true lover and savior, 
Please come! 
And come to me right here and now!