When I Fell, I Was Right



When I Fell, I Was Right
By Tt
At Virginia’s humble home
5/9/2026

(1)
When I believe I have grasped a fundamental truth,
I become powerless to betray my self-esteem.
I know it might sound very arrogant.
To this,
I am very sorry!

(2)
When I express ideas that focus on the benefit of others,
I become fearless, and henceforth often offend many.
I know it might sound overly confident,
But I do not know how to do anything beneficial
Without trusting my own guts.
Thus,
I am very sorry!

(3)
Tibetans and their Mahayana ethics
Are so thorough and superb—
But why have they become stateless?
And still beg around the world?
I know this might sound too harsh and cynical,
But I do not know how to reconcile moral purity
With being pitied by others.
So,
I am very sorry!

(4)
This is, perhaps,
The ninety-ninth time I have reminded myself:
“Don’t worry, be happy.”
Yet I still embarrass myself
With my honest opinions.
This might sound self-abusive,
But I cannot surrender
To short-sighted self-denial.
To this,
I am very sorry!

(5)
Maybe, after all,
The very best that I can contribute
To the people I love
Is, indeed,
To let the world run its due course.
But may I at least be free from defamation?
I am afraid
Half the world would stand against me.
Thinking of this,
I have no words—
But,
I am very sorry!

(6)
Maybe, after all,
The real question I should ask is:
“Are you purely concerned with others,
Or do you use others
To inject the drug of self-importance?”
Can I give you the purest answer?
To my fellow brothers and sisters,
The only words I can think of are nothing
But:
I am very sorry!



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